December 8, 2012
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Naked
Imagine something you love. Not just like, but love. Adore. Can’t get enough of it. Don’t know how you’d do without it – don’t even like to think about that. You are truly connected to this thing you love, love, love… and it vanishes. Just, “Poof!” Gone.
All of my life – and seriously, ever since I can remember, ALL of my life – I’ve had 50 thoughts swishing around in my brain, and I would catch them up in a pen, and write. Whenever something – good or bad – happened to me or around me, I could write it. It put the bad things into perspective. It kept the good things alive for me, the happiness of the past ever-present, if I wanted it.
Here, Xanga, is where I dared to jump. Put it all into cyberspace. Let the thing that I love out. Let others – gulp! – see what I write. Too personal, I thought, after a while. Like showing scars to strangers. I pulled back, and put a robe and slippers on.
Looking back, I should have seen it coming, should have known that it would leave me, this thing that I love. I don’t blame it. I didn’t treat it with the respect that it deserves. First, I hid it away as if ashamed of it. Then, I gave it some freedom, and tried to rein it in… again, ashamed.
I am only truly happy when writing and not worrying about what other people will think of what I put down on paper. There is only one way to coax it back to me, this thing that I love. Only one way to bring my thoughts back, and through my pen.
I am taking off the robe, and kicking off the slippers, cute, pink and fuzzy though they may be.
And you know what? That robe freaking itched. Feels good to be naked again.
Comments (17)
Welcome back!
I can relate to the writing being my best avenue of communicating my distress, sharing, and my creativity. You’re a good person and you deserve to be happy. I hope you are well and it’s always good to see you… Hugs,
The wife and I were just talking about you
welcome back.
I love writing and yes, it is a way to put out all those feelings.
you know what, i scrolled up, down, up, down, and still couldn’t find what i came here to find.. anyway, it’s good not to be itched anymore, it’s liberating..
You’re back! I’ve missed you here.
Sometimes it is only for our own soul that we must write.
You haven’t been on in forever! I miss you. You’re not allowed to be gone this long ever again! lol
Welcome home, then
heres a strawberry annila offee, we should graduate up from simply sinful cinnamon. :0 I was shoked to see ya post.
welcome back
So good to see you’re back
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Is this what you call… back in the flesh?
It’s so nice to see you here again. I’m all excited because it seems that so many people are returning now. Welcome back!
I wondered what you were up to… glad you’re back into this neck of the woods. I wouldn’t worry about the “virtual nudity”… we have a lot of nudists around here, and it all works out in the end. You’re among friends.
Welcome back. Nice to see you
Yeah, what’s the worst that could happen?